A Brief Thought

General Conference always get me thinking about the past 6 months of my life- because it comes around every 6 months. It's like a mini-New Year for me where I evaluate life and compare it to where I was 6 months ago.

So, 6 months ago I was pregnant and in Utah visiting family. We had taken family pictures with Russ's family on Saturday. I remember getting ready and being able to take so much time to get my hair just how I wanted.

Well, my hair was how I wanted it before I hefted up a hill to take the pic. It still looks good though.

Anyway, so I'm in this new year's thought process and I thought about having a baby and what that all entails. And I decided something- that is totally different from anything I've ever hear.

Labor and Delivery with Phoenix was not too bad. Honestly? Law school- at least Practice Court- was more physically demanding. And I am absolutely serious about that. Granted, I am not a super hero person- I got an epidural and Phoenix came in about 20 minutes. So I don't have the poster story experience of how miserable it can be.

But I'll tell you what I think is the hardest part of being a new mom- pumping. Or nursing. Or pretty much being trapped in time glass. 

I feel like I'm on LOST and I've got to push a button every 108 minutes.

And while I'm glad that Phoenix hasn't had to drink formula at all- I can't wait to get 4 hours of my day back. I'd like to have time to get my hair "just how I want it" again.

Sigh . . .

So I've had a few unexpected days off and I've used them to clean- super clean- my kitchen. And work out for a few hours. And to read (currently: Team of Rivals). And catch up on sleep.

As I've cleaned, I put on Hulu and started to re-watch the first season of LOST (I know, I know, second post in a row mentioning this store- I do realize I am turning into LOST junkie.)

So I think my soul is a little down. You know, not doing fun things and being alone most of the day. But today, this part of LOST totally cheered me up. I thought I would share it with you.

Enjoy!

Joe Purdy~ Wash Away

The Painted Veil

I loved this movie.

I thought the movie was an interesting exploration of love, forgiveness, and marriage.

This past weekend, I read the book.

I thought it would have the same themes as the movie, but it didn't. Isn't that interesting to read the same story but from a somewhat different angle?

Anyway, I thought the book was an interesting exploration of love, inner peace, and the personal journey of spirituality. It was more of an individualistic journey than a journey experienced in marriage. I loved this book.

So, I recommend you pick it up.

P.S. I realize that I have strong interest in these themes.

In a way, the novel reminded me of LOST. So now I am re-watching the LOST finale.

LOST and lost

My experience with LOST began in 2006. I had just returned from my mission and, in a cliché way, I was lost.

I had just returned from my mission. If you know me, you know that I am a planner. On my mission I made it a point not to plan life after my mission. So when life after my church service began, I did not really know where to start.

Now, Russ was there. My family was there. But I was unsure of how to adjust. I am pretty sure all missionaries experience this.

Well, Russ and I went and visited Scott and Andrea (my brother and sister-in-law) in Pocatello, Idaho. After a nice dinner we wanted to watch a movie. But instead Russ, Scott, and Andrea convinced me to watch LOST.

Initially I was interested because it was filmed in my third area, Kahalu’u. So I was curious to see my old area on tv.

I think it was the second or third episode that I recalled my political science class from undergrad. I had studied John Locke in political theory. It’s hard to explain the spark that occurred. But we stayed up watching LOST until early in the morning.

I was an addict from there.

So, as I watch the end of this show tonight, I cry without saving any face. I am closing that awkward chapter in my life (I know, I know. Kind of late to close it). I look back at all the changes that have happened to me since I’ve been home. Too many to list here.

But I’m starting a new chapter in life. I am no longer the FOB missionary I once was. I’m not really a newly wed or in my early 20’s even. I’m not a first year law student.

Today, I became a certified yoga instructor. I work in a legit legal office (not some prep job for law school). Russ and I have been married over 3 years. So what I’m saying is that it’s time for LOST to end. I am ready for the next chapter.

So Thank you LOST. And Aloha.