Vague Blog

Russ and I have just returned from Orange, Texas. We went to visit the Hayes family. They are a family that have so much LOVE. They've come to visit us in San Marcos, and this is our second time going back East. But more on this trip later.

What I wanted to blog about was a conversation I had with M. Hayes. She is the matron of the family, and she is amazing. This woman has a presence about her. When she talks, you listen. Her children are amazingly obedient (but I know it's taken her years of work and practice). And you know she loves you. You can just feel it in everything she does or says.

We were talking on the couch before we left about life. She has had some challenges lately, in all aspects of life. Russ and I have also had some interesting turns lately. This is where this blog is going get vague. So no need to read on if you're not in the mood for the passive discussion.

M. Hayes said, "It's all about attitude. But be careful, because before you know it, you're attitude becomes reality." I had to laugh at this. There's been a lot on my mind lately. I made a comment to Russ a year or two ago, sort of off-handedly. Now, the inverse of that comment has happened. (Vague??? Well, I warned you...).

Since that talk, as we drove home, I've thought about that and pondered why the inverse happened instead of the exact statement I made. And I think I've figured out. I think if the actual statement had happened, the first part would have been done out of willingness. But the second part would have been done out of sense of duty. But because the inverse happened, both were done out of willingness.

Isn't that interesting? And isn't this vague? I do apologize.
I really wrote this so I would remember... I hope I remember through the vagueness.

LOST and lost

My experience with LOST began in 2006. I had just returned from my mission and, in a cliché way, I was lost.

I had just returned from my mission. If you know me, you know that I am a planner. On my mission I made it a point not to plan life after my mission. So when life after my church service began, I did not really know where to start.

Now, Russ was there. My family was there. But I was unsure of how to adjust. I am pretty sure all missionaries experience this.

Well, Russ and I went and visited Scott and Andrea (my brother and sister-in-law) in Pocatello, Idaho. After a nice dinner we wanted to watch a movie. But instead Russ, Scott, and Andrea convinced me to watch LOST.

Initially I was interested because it was filmed in my third area, Kahalu’u. So I was curious to see my old area on tv.

I think it was the second or third episode that I recalled my political science class from undergrad. I had studied John Locke in political theory. It’s hard to explain the spark that occurred. But we stayed up watching LOST until early in the morning.

I was an addict from there.

So, as I watch the end of this show tonight, I cry without saving any face. I am closing that awkward chapter in my life (I know, I know. Kind of late to close it). I look back at all the changes that have happened to me since I’ve been home. Too many to list here.

But I’m starting a new chapter in life. I am no longer the FOB missionary I once was. I’m not really a newly wed or in my early 20’s even. I’m not a first year law student.

Today, I became a certified yoga instructor. I work in a legit legal office (not some prep job for law school). Russ and I have been married over 3 years. So what I’m saying is that it’s time for LOST to end. I am ready for the next chapter.

So Thank you LOST. And Aloha.